To:Darkness,Brian, Kitty, Joe, and Nick.

So I decided I would like to chase modeling as a career... It may be foolish and a little out there on my part but I've already done some modeling photoshoots and I'm creating my own website with the help of a friend...

I think I can do this whole modeling thing if I really tried, the first time I truly believe in myself and I get shot down. What the fuck?! Seriously, I do understand it's a bit out there and a hard to reach goal but I think with enough effort I can do this...

If anyone seriously thinks I'm wasting my time, let me know. But also tell me why.

I seriously don't want to work at Subway the rest of my life, and the modeling right now is one of the few things that make me believe in myself... as an artist it helps me express what I'm feeling in front of the camera. As a person it makes me feel like I'm actually beautiful... Sorry I have incredibly low self-esteem and think I'm a worthless door mat meant to be stepped on... As a girlfriend, makes me feel like I can make Brian proud to stand next to me. As a friend, if the whole modeling thing works out, I can help so many people...
Darkness with your agency, I can give you a jump start on being the amazing artist and gorgeous lady that you are.
Brian with his dream of becoming a digital graphics designer, get him a nice computer and equipment.
Kitty, I could help you and Zio with that wedding you guys want, and maybe get you started selling those nommy cookies.
Joe I could help you with your anime and get you some great equipment as well to make your dream come true.
Nick I could get you started in publishing that book....
All I wanna do is help people, but in order for me to do that, I have to chase this dream, and goal of mine....

I dont want to be stepped on anymore.... I want my strength to get me to where I want to go, not where someone says I should... First time in my life I'm standing up for myself and this time, I refuse to get knocked down.